Exclusive Content:

3 Ways to Fight for Your Marriage When You’re Tempted to Throw in the Towel

"People were placing bets at our wedding. Nobody thought we had a chance."

How to Deal With a Lying Husband and Get a Better Marriage

"I can still remember vividly the look on my husband’s face as regretful tears fell and he lay broken before me."

One Year After “I Do,” Husband Realizes Why Marriage Isn’t for Him

They met when they were 15 and were best friends for 10 years—but after being married just 1 year, the truth hit him HARD.

“In 20 Days, I’ve Put Over 40 People in Body Bags”: Heartbroken ICU Nurse Says ‘This Virus Does Not Discriminate’

“I worked my last shift in NYC today. Tomorrow, I will pack my things and get my room cleaned and fly out Monday morning.

The devastation I’ve witnessed here is not something I can adequately put into words. I’ve FaceTimed a patient’s family so they could say goodbye. In 20 days I’ve put over 40 people in body bags to be put into a refrigerated truck, because the morgue does not have enough space. I’ve seen one patient fully recover. Sure, I am in a “hotspot” and was working in an ICU, so the patients there are sicker, but it didn’t change the fact that this virus did not discriminate. I saw healthy, young people die just as often as I saw elderly, sick people die.

I wasn’t going to share this picture. It was sent from a coworker who took it after I’d lost 3 patients in one shift a little over a week ago. I was sitting on a dirty mattress in the floor of our break room weeping, covered in 3 layers of PPE. These people died alone. Their families were given a FaceTime goodbye, which to me, felt cheap. I didn’t know how to apologize for not being enough. For our medicine not being enough. For everything we’ve done not being enough.

How do you apologize for this? I know it’s not my fault. I know I could not prevent this. But it is nonetheless devastating and you leave feeling so inadequate.

The numbers are getting better. There is healing happening, but I won’t be here to see it.

I leave you with this: I understand economical devastation. I understand the fear of not being able to provide for your family. But I also have had to allow FaceTime goodbyes and held the hands of people who just couldn’t fight this off. I would rather beg for food every day than ever have to be on the other end of that FaceTime call. So please be safe and cautious.

I am not a hero. I am a nurse. This is what we’re made to do. I fully believe that God places us on this earth to love and serve others, and I am so grateful I was able to serve in this capacity.

Thank you all so much for loving me and praying for me through this assignment. I look forward to my quarantine days and I am thankful I get to have them! Sweet home Alabama, I am coming for you!”

**This post was written by Rachel Elizabeth Pochop and originally appeared on her Facebook page

3 Ways to Fight for Your Marriage When You’re Tempted to Throw in the Towel

"People were placing bets at our wedding. Nobody thought we had a chance."

How to Deal With a Lying Husband and Get a Better Marriage

"I can still remember vividly the look on my husband’s face as regretful tears fell and he lay broken before me."

One Year After “I Do,” Husband Realizes Why Marriage Isn’t for Him

They met when they were 15 and were best friends for 10 years—but after being married just 1 year, the truth hit him HARD.