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Dennis Quaid Boldly Proclaims That Faith in God Saved Him After Addiction

Dennis Quaid is best known for being a talented and prolific actor, but he's always been a talented musician as well. Now at 69 years old, he's releasing his first-ever gospel album, inspired by his faith in God.

WATCH: Baby’s Epic Baptism Disaster Is a Viral Sensation

A baby's baptism is making quite the "splash" on TikTok this week after a swift hit of the prayer book took things in a completely different direction.

‘My Mom Still Waves Goodbye to Me. She Still Makes Me Meals When I Visit. A Mom-Heart Doesn’t Change Just Because Her Kids Are...

"A mom-heart doesn’t change just because her kids are adults. And no one can ever take that spot in a child’s heart... grown or not. As I’ve gotten older, my mom still does the same motherly things she’s always done, now for me and my babies. She still stands outside, rain or shine, and waves goodbye as we leave."

What I Realized the Day I Finally Got “Skinny Enough”

I loved to dance when I was little, but I eventually stopped taking lessons. I was tired of always being the biggest one, needing the biggest costume, sucking in my stomach, hoping something would fit.

I wanted to look like my mother and grandmother—small, dark-haired, fine-boned, like blackbirds or Russian princesses. Instead, I looked like a Dutch peasant from a Brueghel painting. I looked like I belonged in a Beef: It’s What’s for Dinner commercial, and all I wanted was to be a fine, black-winged bird.

Growing Up Feeling “Too Big”

Some of my most painful memories involve trying to find something to wear. As a chubby adolescent, I was always between sizes. I ended up in cobbled-together outfits, held together with safety pins, feeling like an impostor.

Shopping was a nightmare, made worse by my size-two mother who would say, “Hmmm… is that a little tight?” Every time. Yes, Mom. Everything I’ve ever tried on has been a little tight. My whole life feels a little tight.

Being too big was a liability. It made me an outsider. And it certainly didn’t help my dating life.

I heard the fateful phrases a thousand times:
“You’re just like a sister.”
“You’re not the kind of girl guys date—you’re the kind of girl they marry.”

Which, now that I am married, is a compliment. But when you’re fifteen and just want to get asked to homecoming, being “marriage material” is as thrilling as having a “good personality.” Who wants a good personality when you could have a cute butt?

The Lie I Believed About My Body

Birthdays were especially hard. Each year, I thought, This time, by this birthday, I’ll be my new self. But I never was.

I’d have a moment alone at my party—blinded by sadness—knowing I’d drag the same shame into another year. And yet, hope would resurface: This is the year. This one.

I shopped defensively, hiding behind the “right” clothes. I watched my friends shop for fun—it was as foreign to me as breathing underwater.

I had pages torn from J.Crew catalogs, filled with the clothes I’d buy once I was thin. I knew life would be easier then. But that life never came.

Shauna Niequist
Shauna Niequisthttp://www.shaunaniequist.com
Shauna Niequist is the New York Times best-selling author of Cold Tangerines, Bittersweet, Bread & Wine, Savor, and Present Over Perfect. She is married to Aaron, and they live in Chicago with their sons, Henry & Mac. Shauna is a bookworm, a beachbum, and a passionate gatherer of people, especially around the table. See more from Shauna on her website.

Dennis Quaid Boldly Proclaims That Faith in God Saved Him After Addiction

Dennis Quaid is best known for being a talented and prolific actor, but he's always been a talented musician as well. Now at 69 years old, he's releasing his first-ever gospel album, inspired by his faith in God.

WATCH: Baby’s Epic Baptism Disaster Is a Viral Sensation

A baby's baptism is making quite the "splash" on TikTok this week after a swift hit of the prayer book took things in a completely different direction.

‘My Mom Still Waves Goodbye to Me. She Still Makes Me Meals When I Visit. A Mom-Heart Doesn’t Change Just Because Her Kids Are...

"A mom-heart doesn’t change just because her kids are adults. And no one can ever take that spot in a child’s heart... grown or not. As I’ve gotten older, my mom still does the same motherly things she’s always done, now for me and my babies. She still stands outside, rain or shine, and waves goodbye as we leave."