By Brie Gowen
Do you know I can’t do this without you?
I watch my husband from across the room. He’s cleaning the coffee pot, preparing to make a much-needed morning brew for us both. His long salt and pepper hair is pulled away from his face, and I can see a weariness under his eyes that would mirror my own if I stood gazing at my reflection. He’s fresh from bed at that time, but honestly the most beautiful thing I have ever seen at that very moment. He is lovely because he is strong. He is strong for our family, and he is strong for me.
Parenting young children is tough, and many days end with me so exhausted I’m just wishing for some sorta boost. We soak up the small morsel of our time alone together, after children have fallen asleep, and I share my heart with my husband in the dark. We laugh, we tell stories from our day, and sometimes we just enjoy the beautiful silence that rests between us, confident in our relationship and our love.
I look at him at those midnight hours and I wonder, does he know I couldn’t do this without him?
When I am too tired to rock another second he takes 3am baby duty, and as I sink my exhausted head into the comfort of my pillow, before I drift off to an anticipated dreamland I thank God for my parenting partner.
I listen from the kitchen as he sits the children down to offer stern yet loving direction and correction. He takes seriously his role as disciplinarian, but also that of a leader by example and source of strength when they need it. They never doubt his love for a second, but then again, neither do I.
He has that certain something as a father I could never quite duplicate, and the way the children look at him adoringly makes me not want to. He is dad. God certainly knew what He was doing when He put this family together.
When I’m worried he listens. When I’m wrong he tells me so. He handles it all with this perfect mixture of honesty and compassion that is like a flashlight to illuminate the things I may not can see right away. I wonder if he knows how much I appreciate his counsel? I think he does.
I watch him across the room as he prepares the coffee, and when I can wait no longer I cross the short space drawn to this partner I can not imagine life without. I wrap my arms around him, I rest there in his embrace, I whisper, thank you, and place my gratitude upon his lips. I look into his sleepy brown eyes, holding his gaze for a precious moment, and in that time I think he knows. I think he agrees and feels the same. I couldn’t do this without you.
About the Author: Brie Gowen is a 30-something (sliding ever closer to 40-something) wife and mother. When she’s not loving on her hubby, chasing after the toddler or playing princess with her four-year-old, she enjoys cooking, reading and writing down her thoughts to share with others. Brie is also a huge lover of Jesus. She finds immense joy in the peace a relationship with her Savior provides, and she might just tell you about it sometime. She’d love for you to check out her blog at BrieGowen.com.