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The Porcelain Death Hole & Holding Back the Ocean

For years I acquiesced to that tide. I stopped believing I’d ever figure it out. I lost hope that I’d ever be able to live like them. And while I carried my shame like an internal branding, I quietly coddled the release it provided.

It took me years of surrendering my soul before I figured out I didn’t have to learn how to hold back the ocean. That was never my assignment. The ocean isn’t meant to be contained. The ocean is meant to be glorified and appreciated in all its power and beauty, pain and grace, misbehavior and obedience.

None of us really have it all figured out. We just keep showing up; respecting the rise, accepting the fall, and balancing our place in the midst of both.

I eventually stopped emptying myself of me. I learned how to sit inside my own body. I figured out how to flow with the tide. As with the overwhelm of the ocean, I decided to stop trying to contain myself, holding space for the lack as well as the overflow. I recognized the need for both.

There is a natural cleansing when we allow ourselves to be who we are, taking up as much space as we require. Freedom, I learned, would never become available to me if I didn’t avail myself of it. And freedom could never exist within the confinement of my shame-endorsed walls.

I’m no longer confused when I see people who seem ok inside their own bodies. After all this time, it finally makes sense. I too have found that gift.

The beauty is that we don’t have to hold back the ocean. We don’t have to run from it or drown beneath it. We can simply exist with it, hold out our hands and say, “Thank you,” for all it has to offer.

Rachael Boley
Rachael Boley
Rachael Boley is a 31-year-old single mom of 3 little nuggets–identical twin 4 1/2-year-olds and a 3-year-old. She works full time as an Oncology Social Worker, and in her “spare time,” she wrestles, snuggles, and loves on her three boys. She moonlights as a blogger and writer, and spends her days learning to enjoy this crazy, messy beautiful life of single motherhood. Follow her on her blog Three Boys and a Mom and on her Facebook Page, and read more of her writings at Divorced Moms.

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