He Loved Me Anyway

I was walking back from my mailbox yesterday, and as I made my way under the canopy of great oaks that curled overhead across my driveway I prayed. I thanked God for the cool breeze that blew across my face on a sultry, summer afternoon, and I thanked him for the blue sky all around. It led me to [praise] Him for family, forgiveness, and being redeemed. Then the next praise that fell from my lips caused me to pause in awe.

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Thank you that you love me anyway. 

The weight of that statement! Just the night before my four-year-old had done something I had instructed her not to do. When confronted with her guilt she had burst into remorseful tears.

As I held her and explained the lesson I was hoping she had learned, I said, “you know Momma still loves you, right? I’ll love you no matter what. Nothing would ever change that.”

This was the thing I wanted my children to know most. I wanted them to understand my unconditional love as their parent.

When I walked down my driveway and considered my past, I was grateful for the unconditional love of my Heavenly Father.

Even as I had labored under the heavy chains of alcohol addiction he had loved me.

All the while that I had led a life that went against everything the Bible taught, He had loved me.

He loved me while I sat in strip clubs, and He loved me when I woke hungover from another night of binge drinking.

He loved me while my marriage fell apart, and He loved me when in my grief I turned to everything but Him.

He loved me when I sought the affection I needed in a mere man’s eyes (okay, many men), and He loved me when I did any and everything to obtain it.

He loved me when I didn’t love myself.

He loved me when I turned my back on Him.

But most importantly He loved me when I returned to Him in shame. He never made me feel unworthy, but simply welcome. I felt welcome to return home.

And He loved me even now, when I fell short on the daily. He loved me when I was envious, when I was angry, when I was impatient, or when I was ungrateful. He loved me even though I messed up over and over again. He loved me even when I was especially unlovable. He loved me.

He loved me anyway.

In a world that bases so much on performance, it’s nice to be loved just because. Nothing can remove me from His love. I’m good enough, and though I can strive each day to do better because I love Him in return, I don’t have to worry that I must be without fault to be saved. I base my actions for improvement on our relationship not on an idea that I must please Him to be loved.

He loves me despite my past, He loves me despite my current shortcomings, and He loves me despite how I may fail in the future. He loves me anyway.

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Brie Gowen is a 30-something (sliding ever closer to 40-something) wife and mother. When she’s not loving on her hubby, chasing after the toddler or playing princess with her four-year-old, she enjoys cooking, reading and writing down her thoughts to share with others. Brie is also a huge lover of Jesus. She finds immense joy in the peace a relationship with her Savior provides, and she might just tell you about it sometime. She’d love for you to check out her blog at BrieGowen.com.