“Babe There’s No Way I’m Going to Survive”: Nurse Makes Heartbreaking Last Calls Before Miraculously Making It Out of California Wildfires Alive

As I lay awake, I realize I’m not alone as I read so many others post about not being able to sleep and how unreal what happened yesterday is… so many of my friends and family have lost their homes, jobs, animals and have family missing.

When I arrived at [F]eather [R]iver yesterday morning it was ‘my Friday.’ I have an orientee and was given a mom/baby-fresh c-sect, and an induction. I assessed them and noticed the orange glow outside… I walked outside with co-workers and watched ash fall like snow and a huge growing cloud of fire…was told it wasn’t super close to the hospital. I continued working.

Within an hour or less, I was going room to room telling moms and dads to get up, wrap their babies up and we had to go. No time to grab personal belongings… we raced towards the ER and lined up. The staff that had cars started filling them with patients. Ambulances, sheriff, and police lined up and helped doctors, nurses and all staff load patients from beds and wheelchairs into cars. I told my co-worker Chrissy to stay close to me. [W]e were scared but not for our lives yet.

We planned to go with our patients to Enloe Hospital and help there if needed. As the last of the patients were loaded, we hopped into an ambulance with a very critical patient, an awesome EMS staff and another nurse Chardonnay. We started moving forward as we watched flames around us, it only seemed like seconds, but I think we got about a mile when we heard the radio traffic that the ambulance in front of us was on fire. We turned down a road into a driveway and stopped and we were told we can’t go any further right now.

I looked around as fire surrounded us, transformers were blowing up and the winds were SOOO fierce! This is when I looked at Chrissy and realized we might not make it out alive. We all got out of the ambulance and moved patients to the garage of the only house not burning, laid them down and tried to reassure their scared faces, while hiding ours.

I wanted to run, just get out and run down the street and dodge flames and get to safety… but reality reminded me I am not faster than a fierce, fast blowing fire. Do I stay in the ambulance? Hide in the garage with my patients? I looked around and it just kept surrounding me growing bigger, I saw cars stuck in gridlock trying to leave, fire surrounding both sides of them. I felt so scared, hopeless, and desperate. I immediately thought of my kids, the man I love so much, my family. I lost it … I called them all and between sobs I said, How very much I loved them, how sorry I was for any way that I let them down or made mistakes and asked my oldest daughters to please make sure their younger siblings were taken care of and knew how much I loved them.

I desperately called my boyfriend, who is a police officer, my hero… my love. He had just got off working all night and I knew he wouldn’t answer, but I kept trying. I called one of my closest friends, Julene. I said my goodbye to her between desperate cries and begged her to go to my house and wake my boyfriend, so I could tell him goodbye, and beg him to help me. She did. He called me, and I couldn’t contain myself. Being a police officer and dealing with crisis he was calm and told me to breathe and that I wasn’t going to die. I told him over and over as I was surrounded by fire, ‘Babe there’s no way I’m going to survive this.’ He asked for my address and I looked at the mailbox and told him. He said, ‘I am leaving now I will come get you.’ I was slightly hopeful.

Then I called my mom, who was out of town, and not only said goodbye but shared how desperately scared I was. That I didn’t want to die, and like all moms have the right answers, asked her what to do? I could hear she was trying to calm me, but she knew by my voice and what she could understand as I was so panicked… that I was not exaggerating. She told me to just stay there, I really had no choice so again she was right. I overheard my coworker and other nurse calling their loved ones.