“I Told My Husband 'I Have to Tell You Something: I Went to Hobby Lobby & Bawled My Eyes Out’": Wife Says This Year, I Need Some 'Dang Christmas Cheer'

“I said to my husband tonight, ‘I have to tell you something.’

His face was like [hmmm]

‘I went to Hobby Lobby during my lunch break today and bawled my eyes out.’

It’s true.

I stood right in front of these trees and started crying when I heard the acoustic version of ‘O’ Holy Night’ playing over the speakers.

This year, I’m not complaining that it’s too early to see all the decorations.

I need some dang Christmas cheer. We all do.

So, there I stood. The tough chick. The one who takes no sh*t… in my hat, sunglasses, and mask… bawling in a Christmas aisle at Hobby Lobby.

I don’t know whether it was exhaustion, sadness, or happiness, but I was in the middle of a full-on breakdown.

I’m excited for my favorite time of year.

I need to live vicariously through my children.

I need to hug and squeeze my family.

I want to binge eat my favorite holiday foods.

I want to watch the snow fall.

I want to watch ‘Home Alone’ and the ‘Santa Clause’ over and over.

I want to listen to Judy Garland’s ‘Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas’ on repeat.

I want to drink hot chocolate in front of the fireplace.

I want to stare at the Christmas tree lights until midnight.

I want to bake and decorate cookies.

I want to go to Midnight mass.

I want to toast beers with my husband while we wait for Santa.

I even want to hang out with our family’s elf.

I want to do all the things we do during the most magical time of the year.

Because 2020 has brought us nothing but hurt, disappointment, sadness, and confusion.

I need all the things that are good in this world.

As I stood in front of those beautifully lit trees, I was reminded there is always hope. Once we choose hope, anything is possible.”

**This post was written by Amanda Goodman and originally appeared on her Facebook page. See more from her here.

“I Told My Husband ‘I Have to Tell You Something: I Went to Hobby Lobby & Bawled My Eyes Out’”: Wife Says This Year, I Need Some ‘Dang Christmas Cheer’