Breakups are hard…even the ones that we know are literally the best thing for us.
And as we fight like hell to move on, we come upon the golden question…
“I know he was bad for me, so why do I still feel so deeply for him? Why do I still love him? I thought once I got back on track with the Lord, I wouldn’t desire him anymore…but the feelings just continue to increase-growing stronger and stronger. How long will I fight these feelings? I left him in the past, but he is still present in my heart.”
Wouldn’t it be nice if when we finally took a step to free ourselves from something that wasn’t good for us (aka, an unhealthy relationship) that we actually felt FREE?
I think that when we break off a relationship, walk away from something thrilling but damaging, and start on a new path, we feel the loss of companionship and hope that the pang of loneliness doesn’t trap us…and that we escape its grasp and run into the arms of the RIGHT guy, the NEW life, and the FREEDOM of moving on.
I mean, that’s how we want it to go, right?
End bad relationship? Check!
Heal from pain of the breakup? Check!
Learn my lesson and grow in my faith? Double Check!
Never think about the ex? Check!
Meet the RIGHT guy? Check!
Live happily ever after? YES PLEASE.
But sometimes…most times…it doesn’t really go in that perfect little order and instead, our hearts fight this dragon that has us in his grasp, breathing the pain of loss and loneliness down our neck.
So there we are, confused and alone in a dark cave, like “HI, WHY AM I STILL SITTING IN THIS CAVE WITH THIS DANG DRAGON?”