‘My Anxiety & Depression Can Make Me a Crappy Friend’—But Sister, I’m Done Apologizing For It

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“My anxiety and depression can make me a [crappy] friend, but I’m not sorry. ⁣

For as long as I can remember, I have always felt the need to apologize for my mental health struggles. I felt the need to over explain everything. I always felt the need to apologize for canceling plans. ⁣

My mental health struggles come and go. I have good days, and bad days. When I have bad days, or weeks even, I disappear.

I don’t answer many texts, I don’t make plans, and if I do, I cancel them. It makes me not a very dependable friend, sometimes. But I’m not sorry, anymore. ⁣

Sometimes I need to take a break from everyone. ⁣

Sometimes I need to take a step back and be alone, while I figure out what’s going on in my head. ⁣

Sometimes I feel ready to see you again, but I’m really not. I’m not ready to talk about the struggles I’m facing yet. ⁣

I have always felt the need to apologize, and I’m done. ⁣

I don’t choose to struggle with this. ⁣
I don’t choose to have my thoughts racing all day. ⁣
I don’t choose to have a war with my mind every day. ⁣
I don’t choose any of this. ⁣

I’m done apologizing for something I don’t have control over. ⁣

So, yes, sometimes, my mental health will make me a bad friend. But that’s only because it is needed for my own sake. ⁣

So I won’t apologize for that anymore. ⁣

I won’t apologize for doing what is best for me.⁣

And for the friends who have stuck around while I cancel plans, go radio silent, and patiently wait until I’m ready to talk, you’re the real ones. And I’m lucky to have you. ⁣

But, I’m not sorry for doing what I need to do to make my mental health a little bit better. ⁣

I’m not apologizing anymore.”

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