I have to be real. Today I lost it. Like really lost it. I just wanted to cry out, “This is more than I can bear!”
I became so overwhelmed with work and comparison and all sorts of icky feelings that I found myself violently closing my laptop, storming out of my house to the pool (Arizona in January has its perks), rubbing suntan lotion on my legs, and pathetically sobbing as I said, “Whatever, I quit! I don’t know how to do this anymore!”
Okay, I admit, it was a little dramatic. Okay, okay…REALLY dramatic.
But sometimes you just lose your cool and that was one hundred percent me today.
Girls, I know how hard it can be to feel like our life is spinning out of control, our joy is depleted, the weight of the world is hangin’ out on our shoulders, and hope seems lost.
Life is just more than I can bear. Period.
I know those icky feelings of comparison and inadequacy that creep into the corners of our hearts when we see all that everyone else seems to have figured out or accomplished.
I know that worry and anxiety that stops us mid-march as we sift through bank accounts, bills, and future goals, just trying to see how it all fits together.
I know that pain that comes when disappointment drops in, when we lose someone or something we love, and when we walk through trials just longing for a triumph that feels so close yet so out of reach.
And more than anything, I’m all too familiar with that famous question, “God, what are you doing? Why are you giving me too much to handle, again?!”
I mean, it’s a valid question.
As I stuck my pouty lip out and crossed my arms in an attempt to live in Pity-ville today, the sun beat down on my face and helped me realize that it’s not only a valid question but it’s a valid question with a very valid answer.
It actually brings to light something we tend to overlook in the middle of our troubles.
Do you wanna know what it is?
It’s simply this:
God will ALWAYS give us more than WE can handle. But He will never give us more than HE can handle.
Why? Because it helps us see our need for Him…when we arrive at a place of total surrender, when we throw our hands up in the air and say, “I just can’t,” He steps in and says, “I can.”