“I had the spot picked out, I had the gun picked out, and I was going to literally take my own life,” he said, fighting back tears.
That night, he took a walk at the rehab center. Moments before he was about to leave and execute his plans, God intervened, and spoke directly to him.
“It was the clearest I’ve ever heard His voice. He told me, ‘I’m not finished with you yet.’”
The former pastor says it was just what he needed to hear in that moment to put things back into perspective.
“It was powerful, it kept me in the game.”
Noble says God’s voice didn’t change the way he was feeling, nor did it fix any of his circumstances. But in that moment, he no longer felt alone.
He admits that things have not gone the way he’d hoped, and that he and Lucretia have not come to a resolution. But one thing he is sure of is that God is faithful.
His voice saved Noble from taking his own life on that fateful day in the rehab center. Now the former pastor wants to share his story in hopes that God will use it to help others.
“It’s not a coincidence that you’re sitting at the other side of this computer listening to me tell my story. Maybe He is using me to spread that encouragement to you. If God can do it for me, He can do it for you. And He will. I absolutely believe that.”
Check out Perry Noble’s heartfelt video below:
The Day I Decided Not To Kill Myself
Posted by Perry Noble on Sunday, July 9, 2017
If you or someone you know is struggling with a mental illness, please know you are not alone. Suicide is completely preventable. PLEASE reach out if you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or fear that someone you love might be.
If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, or text “START” to 741-741.