“Do You Ever Think You Look Good, And Then You’re Like ‘Holy Moly I Ate Too Much Gaucamole?'”

“Do you ever think you look good, but then you see a picture of yourself, and you’re like holy moly I ate too much of that guacamole?

And sushi.

And fries.

That’s me.

I went to the beach yesterday with my kids, and to be honest, I wasn’t too tripped up about being in a bathing suit.

Living in the Florida heat and the fact that I have three young kids and a pool means that I’m in my bathing suit a lot.

And, up until now, I’ve felt pretty good about how I looked in a two-piece.

But, tonight, for a short while, I felt embarrassed.

Embarrassed that after a year and a half of four to five days a week at the gym, I now look like this, ashamed at how I’ve ‘let myself go’ since the pandemic started, and semi-annoyed over not really noticing that my body has negatively changed over the last three months.

But has it really changed all that much?

Perhaps it has, or maybe it hasn’t, but I’ve changed as a whole person, that I know.